a millionth times, i wonder..
Nothing beats a great breakfast. I just had my supper and I am starting to imagine myself having warm chicken char siew polo bun from Mayson's bakery(jp2) and Alive apple and pomelo bits yogurt tml morning. Life is great when you have the world's best thing.. like the char siew and heavenly yogurt. :D
I was called back to Xingnan for relief these two days. What a relief indeed! Actually, I was getting sick of worrying about suddenly receiving calls from the school early in the morning at 6 and making a last minute change of schedule with my boss at office. Somehow my indecisiveness is sickening... but it is really a pleasure to go to school and see the kids- so adorable and innocent. Yesterday, I got a chance to meet my favourite 4A students during their recess. Sat with them and had a great chat! We had an interesting conversation and part of it which i found totally amusing:
4A kids: Ms Yap do you have Facebook?
Me: Yea
4A kids: Add me please!! (and the other few said the same thing..)
Then one of them, Adri, said, "My facebook profile picture has LADY GAGA.
Me: Whoa, you guys idolise lady GAGA? :o
Adri: Yes! That picture is personalised. :D
ZK(another student): He put his face in the air bubble which shows that lady gaga is thinking of him.
Me: HAHAHAHHAHAA..
Isn't it amazing? How children think and who they look upon as idols, role models... and the way they choose teachers to interact with. Sometimes it urges me to think of my days in primary school, and recall the feeling of plainly chatting with teachers, and .. feeling innocent. :D It's like you have to watch your words now for troubles come finding you.
I have not checked out their fb profiles though they left me their email addresses. Anyway, when I stepped into a primary 6 class today they clicked quite well with me too. But two boys who claimed to go toilet and wandered somewhere got me a little bit trouble(another sch teacher comment on my inability to watch out students). Well,I did not get back to them on that.. :D
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Jun Lin can do the most amusing things sometimes. I feel like I love him day by day. :)
There are some things which I did in the past which made me regretful. Remember 11 years ago when my parents announced that my mother is expecting another child, I was both worried and disappointed. I told them 3 of us were enough and that having a 4th child would be a total burden. At the same time, I was sad because I werent already getting the attention that I needed and wanted from my parents. However, looking back, I feel so ashamed of my selfishness and arrogance. Though Jun Lin has been a naughty fellow, giving teachers and parents headaches, he is very lovable. And I am sorry for he has to undergo what has been tormenting us at this very tender age. Looking at his frail skinny body sometimes give me heartache... It's not that he is not given food, and he is a very spoilt kid(as the last child-.-), but it is probably the lack of concern and family love that binds him.
I wouldnt feel all these years ago because I was overly concerned with schoolwork and my external activities. But as I interact more with him I feel his need, and the more we interact he plays and jokes with me. The best things he made my day:
-He takes out his collection of Mcdonalds CNY Doraemon soft toys and plays with them, narrating a little story.
-I asked him to be my brother and he played along, asking me to be his sister and then we put our arms around each other's neck. (If you've seen my fb profile picture, that's the one.) In the end I had a backache and he had muscle ache in the arm. HAHA
-We took silly pictures during the Genting trip last year.
How much fun have I not thought of when I was young?
Sometimes, I want to go back to the innocent and carefree days... sometimes, I feel so silly of my own innocence. Growing up